A confession

Fear
Insecurity
More Fear
More Insecurity

Most debilitating.
How I wish I would rise above it.

Rubbing elbows with "There's the rub"

Nakapicture rin!

Too much sleep

67 years = Pinoy average life span (PALS)
24455 = PALS in days
586920 hours = PALS in hours
24 hours = 1 day
10 hours = this much sleep made in a day
244550 hours = hours within PALS spent on sleep
24.917 years = spent on sleep
42 years = alive

Good or bad?

Finals

Tis the season of final exams
Wala munang blog-blog.
Tsk

...But God, in His infinite Goodness, took pity

Behold...

From Legaspi with Love...

March 10, 2006.
My first visit to Legaspi City.
My supposed to be first sighting of the fabled Mt. Mayon.
Forty five minutes by plane from the Centennial Airport.
45 minutes later, I saw it. Rather it's feet.
For most of Mt. Mayon's splendor was hidden.
By those lousy clouds.
It's raining in Legaspi.
Talk about irony.
Sigh.
Still, it's something to be thankful for.

Credibility Lost?

"Walang kinikilingan, walang pinoprotektahan, serbisyong totoo lamang!"

NOT.

Movie quote

"Today is a new day."
---- Chicken Little

A clean room

Just cleaned my room today.
No thinking made, no plan executed.
I just got a trash bag and started picking up stray trash.
Then picked up a broom and swept the floor.
Under the bed and the top of the table.
Arranged books, wiped the floor.
No thought other than to clean the room.
Got some coins as extra reward.
Now I have a better room to sleep in.
A better room to study in.
A cleaner room to think in.
A better room to pray in.
Same room, just cleaner.

Think I'll do the same with me. =)

Black Shirt Day

This is the day when the perceived apathetic students of the UP College of Law went out to streets of the campus to have their voices heard. This is the day when the perceived apathetic students of the UP College of Law walked out of their classrooms and the shelter of the college to convince their fellow students to march out in protest. This is the day when the UP College of Law wore black.

When the basest of civil rights are trampled by the very head of state, under a proclamation and general order held valid only by the one who issued it, the constituents of the College cannot be silenced.

It was a surreal sight. The first time I witnessed such an assembly of such composition. The mostly College of Law students, with some of their professors, as well as some of the College staff, wore black and marched under the sweltering heat of the noonday sight; not in revelry but in high protest. As a professor in his closing exhortation later said, I was surprised to see those many. (I was even more surprised to be shouting side by side with a classmate who in my wildest dream, I believe, won’t be joining such. But that is another story.)

Indeed, it was the stuff of dreams.

Sign

Seen posted at a govenment office:

Cash Division (tseke)

Transient

Today is Ash Wednesday. Today most Catholics will allow ashes to be placed on their forehead and proudly display it.

More than being the start of Lent, I view Ash Wednesday as a reminder of my being an earthly transient. It is a welcome reminder that my length of stay on this world is a finite number. It is welcome reminder that whatever it is that I have to do in this world, according to His ultimate purpose, I have to find out, and find out quickly. And once it is found to perform it in utmost haste. It is said that "from dust I came, and unto dust I will return". I am once again reminded. To anyone who thinks that he is bodily immortal need only to be reminded of this day. As the priest in his homily aptly said, this ash came from something that was full of life and color, but eventually turned brown and dead.

I will ask for God's Grace.

"A man without an umbrella is a fool." --- The Avengers

Tim, my brother in Christ, always carry an umbrella wherever he goes.
Even if it is quite obvious that it would not rain, he brings his trusty umbrella with him.
When I asked him about it, he simply said that "A man without an umbrella is a fool."

Today, I turned out to be that fool.
Water started falling from the sky come consecration time.
By the end of the mass, the rain was considerably pouring.
I found myself amidst a body of parishoners standing helpless by the door without hoping for the rain to stop.
At that moment I sincerely wished that I heeded Tim's advice.

Will I heed it hence? Let's see.

Wala lang

Mahirap lang sa simula
Sa unang buhos lang malamig

Not wanting to sleep

It's 2:20 AM and I am very sleepy. Yet I do not want to sleep yet. I am doing these mundane things thought there are more important things to be done. Talk about lacking focus. My only excuse - there's something nagging inside me trying to figure out what I am supposed to be doing but am not. Maybe I just need to sleep. Weird thing is that it is quite often that I have this thought or feeling. A feeling that I am not supposed to be here or doing what I am doing but due maybe to inaction or a wrong decision, I find myself here and not fulfilling what is supposed to be done. A faint idea comes to mind. Maybe I should sleep on it now.

Facelift

I changed the way this blog looked.
Not that it really matters, since only I knows of this blog. But still...

Until I have the time to learn how to personalize this spot on the web, I will just make do with the available templates. Not that the available ones are bad, it's just that since we are granted this "free" space on the web, might as well personalize it to our hearts content.